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The Myth
02:50
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It is easy to remember palm trees
flying past in the dark of night, but not
what they looked like. Their fingers
must have reached to us, grasping
for a chance to be mobile, on the move,
like we always were.
“They” is a better word, since
most of my time passed by within the confines
of a pair of ear-sized speakers.
My memories are holograms.
I disagree with the myth.
I wanted to combust.
I still disagree with the myth.
I opened Pandora’s box
for hours on end each night, allowing
sonic truths to float through my brain, while palm trees
raced after my friends.
I often dreamed of a stage
lit with pillars of fire and light-beams
of heavenly strength shining upon me.
I could never see the rest of the band
in my holograms. The palm trees continued to grasp
for a chance at movement; they waved gently
outside my window, beyond the worn pane of glass
and the checkerboard of the screen,
begging me to include them
in my dreams of fame and fire.
I imagined myself sitting upon a miniature throne
in the back seat of a metal carriage, while each of my advisers
commented on the oppressiveness of the night air.
I imagined myself seeping through the cracks
in the hardwood floor – like bad concrete
with weak aggregate – of my bedroom,
taking Pandora’s box with me, and delivering
bits of truth to the curved fingers of each tree
while sliding through chlorophyll-saturated veins.
I have been reaching for them ever since, trying to find
the truth in the myth
of adolescence.
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2. |
Vista
04:36
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A landscape exists within me.
My heart is a cloud that rains
upon the soil. It spills its bitter precipitation
with little regard for the flooding that may occur.
I have no levies to stop the torrent.
I have built no dams. I have little choice
but to accept the maelstrom
obliterating my landscape. My heart
is a bleeding one. The livestock of my life
are bombarded by blasts of wind.
Every last drop of my sanity is shed
as the pain becomes a welcome relief from reality.
To realize that one is simply a mouse
is to understand the nature of prey.
She coils and twists around me as a boa constrictor
annihilates its prey. I am the mouse
in the grip of the boa, only able to observe
and experience my total and utter destruction
at the hands of my coiled emotions. Tighter,
ever tighter I am squeezed. She is the coiled boa.
I am but a small rodent in her grasp. I feel her grip
tighten, even as she draws away from me. She
is the coiled boa. I am but a small rodent
in her grasp. The wind leaves my lungs and spills
across the land before me. I fill the rugged, bitter soil
with my pain. I caress the sinister blades of grass
with my despair. My wind is being lost, and my song
with it. She is the coiled boa. I am but a small rodent
in her grasp. I will share my song with the landscape of my soul.
I will break what little is left of myself,
now that she is gone. I will gather the shards
of my integrity, and I will construct the strongest levies,
dams, walls, barricades, barriers, and floodgates
that my inner world has ever known.
I will stand the test of time, as my Great Wall glares
across this vista. It is a pristine, emotionless vista.
The livestock roam free, the gentle breeze
jostles the branches of the trees, the fields sweep
across the horizon in never-ending emerald. She
is the coiled boa. I am but a small rodent
in her grasp. As she slithers away from me, I catch
one last glimpse of the beauty that once was.
My pain has been spent, otherwise I would feel
the bitter sting of regret that comes with knowing guilt.
My fertile vista transforms instantly,
and I am left with a barren wasteland. I see
one small weed growing between two sandy boulders
as my ragged, shallow breaths threaten to peter out.
It seems that I am not so appetizing to her after all. She
was the coiled boa. I was but a small rodent
in her grasp. The weed occasionally shakes in the wind,
my breath, my pain, my guilt ― my hope grows
between two sandy boulders, as my breaths remain labored.
My hope will stand guarded by the walls
of my shattered heart reconstructed. My hope
will stand feebly in the wake of a maelstrom.
My hope will not be crushed by the grip of a boa.
My hope will overthrow my pain.
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3. |
Future Son
02:26
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Plank-deck hobby sparkling relentless,
you ride – a silhouette against the grey, a pirouette
of flippancy amongst the greens, an accent
on the acuity of yellow sun-rays.
Follow the cement circuit; breaker of
wind, of timeless continuity you are. Step
off hard, the seashell-aggregate will push back,
propelling the plank forward into this keen contrast.
Vibration of the wheels over rough
pavement will stall the movement of oiled
bearings. Get them, the hallowed blank spaces
that emerge from the textures of the clouds.
Alight, and chase the spectres
which burn relentlessly in the hearts
of the crows, spraying music into the branches.
Climb toward epiphany, future son
and do not fear the crows,
for the notes will strike the strings – not
the other way around. The bend
approaches, feint slightly, lean into
the embrace of gravity, and remember
your gewgaw-ish frictional quality
which spurs all men and women against you
willingly; do not alight lightly.
The epic awaits you, future son; one day
you will know why crows remain in the
branches, why they seldom speak
unless threatened or mating,
and why the wheels beneath you
will never stop burning track-marks into
the concrete. One day you will know all this,
should you choose to accept it, and you will then
be a friend to the music inside you.
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Detritus devolving, concrete infinity, burn
through the artifice. Find nothing that can stop
the onslaught of the laser that bores into ice,
shattering the consciousness of the elite
in one fell swoop. Standing is more work
than infinity would ever admit, especially on the feet of silence.
Muse-speaker, cite an artificial blank
and ride onward into the swooping ice-fall.
Grasping for inkwells, the palm leaves
slip on puddles of beaming sunlight. Sing
onto a ballpoint until all can be found
within the flattened carcass of an idea. Burn
through the artifice. Standing on infinity
works if silence allows infinity to speak.
Beyond-traveler, hold the hands of the cube
of ice which melts in puddles of the heat.
Empty glasses seem to sparkle
relentlessly in the corners of the concrete.
Where shall the poles retreat to in the dead
of wintry elitism? Devolve the fraud, and walk
on further toward the golden Ice Age
which will appear at the edge of the music.
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House of Hummingbirds Ann Arbor, Michigan
House of Hummingbirds exists to burn through the artifice of the digital age and reconnect with the beauty of human
emotions.
Evan Zegiel has been writing poetry and lyrics for years. He is primarily an orchestral tuba player, but has been playing bass and electric guitar for about the same amount of time. Merging those skills resulted in the birth of House of Hummingbirds.
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